denial.

i think i'm in denial of growing up. i realize that i'm supposed to graduate in a little less than 8 months, but for some reason i keep thinking that time is never really going to come. it's not time for me to get a real job and be all grown up, is it?

unfortunately, it is. but thats actually something that makes me both excited and hesitant. i really have no idea what i'm going to be be doing with my life once it becomes may. while i'm graduating with my license in teaching, i don't want to be a teacher [i don't think]. what else would i do though? up until recently, i haven't stressed out about it at all. whether its because i am extremely laid back, because i just have complete trust that God will provide, or because i'm too lazy to actually start making decisions about my future....i have virtually no clue about where my life is heading. and today that kind of hit me--that maybe i need to start working on a resume, searching for jobs, etc. i just know that i suck at making decisions, and i want to just be told where to live and what to do for a job. any suggestions??

on another note, my 7th grade volleyball team is 3-1 for the season. they're studs, and i love being called "coach g" :)

reach out to someone today.